Man it has been awhile!

So I figured this might be a good thing for me to do again! I needed to get a few things out and this seems to be the best place for me to do it. First lets catch up.

While we were still at Eglin I found a mass in my throat. Went and had it checked out, found out it was attatched to my thyroid, then went and had a biopsy done. Couldn't get the results read til we got to Whiteman. Which sucked. Cause literally we knew nothing, we had no idea if it was cancerous or not.

Move went successful, we got here on the 2nd of August! Took us a few weeks to find a house, but we ended up buying a house out in the Villages! I absolutely love my house and the fact that it is ours and no one elses!! We just need to do a few things to it. We need to get a fence put in! We need to get a new stove, ours sucks majorly! And a few other things. Can't wait til tax time!

Got here and found an OB, went and got an app with an ENT doc. He said that my mass had gone from the size of a golf ball to the size of a man's fist. Holy crap batman! That scared me a bit. Recommended that I go to the OB and figure out the soonest I could have Natalie cause at this point I was 38 weeks pregnant! Went back and forth, and finally got an induction date. That app was on a Tuesday, my induction was scheduled for the 4th of September! Had Mike's parents come down so they could help with taking care of Abigail while we were in the hospital. Went in the hospital at 6 in the morning, got hooked up to the monitors and I was already in labor, who knew that. Had Natalie at 9:27 that night! She weighed 9 lbs 8 oz and was 20 in long! She has tons of hair! I couldn't believe how big she was! She is such a good baby! We had problems with her jaundice at first, even had to spend that next weekend in the hospital. Finally got all that taken care of. Now it was time to get me taken care of.

Went to my referral app in Columbia to see about my surgery. Dr. told me that it was going to be 6 1/2 hours. And that it was going to be a major surgery! Scared the crap out of me! I played the pity party for awhile. But soon got over that. My surgery was scheduled for the 22 of September. Mike took me up there, and stayed until I went under and then drove home with the girls. Surgery went good, they took out lots of lymph nodes and the mass and my thyroid. I had surgery on a Tuesday and was able to come home that Thursday. I had gotten 49 stitches. From the top of my left ear, down through my neck all the way to the right side of my neck. holy crap one big scar! Doctors said it all looked like it was cancerous and that I was going to have to have a scan done. I had to have an I 123 scan. But considering I was still breast feeding Natalie I couldn't have the scan done right away. So I had to wait 6 weeks. So my scan was scheduled for the 2-4 of November!

Halloween came and it was time for Nat's two month check up, she gained some weight she was 10 lbs 13 oz! And was 21 1/2 in! I was like man she is getting big! I got Abbey her fly shot and her HINI shot. Got mine, and got Nat's shots done too! That Sunday took the girls to Iowa to meet up with Mike's stepmom and dad! They took the girls for us, I was not sposed to be around the girls for awhile due to the Iodine I was going to have radiating off my body. Those two weeks were rough. I went the next Monday to get labs done, Tuesday got a small dose of Iodine and then a scan done. And then on Wednesday I got another scan done in the morning to check to see if I had any nodes left or anything else that needed to be killed in there. They saw that there were still a few nodes left and then gave me the full treatment of Iodine. Now the fun began...

I was to be in seclusion for the next 3 - 5 days. I could not be around Mike, could not touch him or be in the same room as him for long periods of time. So he slept on the couch those few days and I slept in the bedroom and used the bathroom there. I had to flush the toilet twice, and clean the bathroom every time I used it, I had to shower all the time, and then clean the shower. Once I was out of seclusion I had to wash all my clothes seperate from Mike. Those days in seclusion were hell. I was by myself, to my own thoughts. I had missed my girls like crazy, the inlaws were driving me nuts. I was arguing with Mike. It just sucked. All I wanted was to be better. Finally Sunday came around I was out of seclusion. Got everything done, was sposed to go to Columbia again for a follow up on Monday, but things got screwed up with that, so had to wait til Thursday. Inlawas were getting tired of the girls, so Carol went and got them and she had them til Saturday. Thursday we went and had my follow up and everything looked great! No more cancer!!! I was so excited! It was hard to believe at 28/29 that I had thyroid cancer. Still hard to believe. But I was better! Now just needed to get my girls back. We picked them up that Saturday! I was so excited to see them! But it was wierd having them back! But now that we have had them back for a week or so, things are back to normal! Abbey is getting better and Natalie is eating alot and is huge! She now weighs 12 lbs 4 oz! So in just a few weeks she gained a lb and a half!

Can't wait for Thanksgiving to come, we are going to my friend Shalone's house! I am excited for that! I am making a turtle pumkin pie and sweet potato caserole and a few other things.

After I had Natalie we tons of company! My mom came down around my birthday and spent a few days here, it was so nice to have her and Jerry down, and then a few weeks after that. Carol and Jerry came down with Mike's grandma Angie and Mike's sister Jaime came down too! Abbey loved having her Nani and Papa down!!

So far living in Mo has been fun! We have loved it so far. I am getting excited for the holidays to roll around. I have lots to be thankful for from my health, to my beautiful girls! And to my hubby who has been through hell and back with me this year!

Its Raining, Its Pooring!!

I wanted to get so much done this weekend, but with this rain I am not going to be able to get anything done. But I guess it is a good time to get stuff done around the house! I need to go through all of Abbey's stuff! She has way too many clothes, and I need to figure out what I am going to keep for the baby and I what I am getting rid of.

Got some of the house cleaned. The living room is picked up and vaccuumed and the kitchen is cleaned up, dishes are done. But I still need to do some mopping! I am taking a break for awhile!

On other news we got TLF all set up for Eglin, now we just need to get set up for Whiteman. We need to get the dogs all caught up on their shots. Which is going to suck, be it needs to be done.

Our cat is doing too good. I have no idea what is wrong with her, she just lays in the bathroom hardly eats anything. She is just going downhill fast. I want to take her to the vet, but I am just afraid at how much it is going to cost us.

But other than that just getting bigger. I am 6 months along now. She is kicking more and more now! Mike even got to feel her kick the other night.

Well I am going to go now, time for me to do something else!! Rain needs to go away!

Pics of diapers!

Here are some of the diapers I have gotten so far! Some of them are so tiny! I mean I can't believe the baby is going to be that small to fit into them. I mean it is hard for me to remember how small Abbey was! But I am starting to get excited and anxious for this baby to get here!

Diapers and more diapers!

I have bought so many diapers lately now that I know this is a girl! I have 20 so far, plus I have another 5 coming! I just been going diaper crazy. Went garage sailing this weekend! I had fun, got a bumbo seat and so far Abbey loves it, even though it isn't for her. I got some more 0-3 month clothes! I just need a few more things and then I am about done. We are waiting til we get to Whiteman to find a dresser, but I want to be set for the baby by the time we leave here. We have a little over 10 weeks left before we leave. It is hard to believe that time is going by so fast!
I am already 23 weeks, the baby is moving like crazy! But so far she leaves me alone at night, she isn't jumping on my bladder as much! Which is good.......I hate getting up at 4 am to go to the bathroom! It sucks!!
I really need to start going through Abbey's things and getting rid of some of her toys and maybe getting ready for a yard sale, I am going to try and aim to have one the beginning of June. I am hoping to have one of my friends come over and help me go through all of Abbey's stuff! That way I can get rid of what she doesn't need, as in clothes and what we are not going to need for the baby. Abbey has so much stuff!
I saw some pics of the houses on base at Whiteman and they loook awesome!! Some of them were built in 2000 and some were built in 2006 and I guess they are building some more now. I just can't wait til we get there and get settled in. I am hoping to go home in October some time to see my mom and then maybe go again in December and be home for Christmas!!

Crazy things with my family! I guess my lil brother who will be 5 soon is going to Wisconsin for the summer, dad is going through some stuff and sending him there. I was like ok. I just can't take him right now, with moving and everything we are just too busy! But whatever, but my dad's wench of a girlfriend is moving back with her dad and so it will just be my other brother and my dad! I mean heck I wish I could just send my kids wherever I wanted to and then just go home to my parents whenever I felt like it. Life just doesn't work that way! I am thankful that I am at that age I am and know that I have a life and I have responsibilities and can't just send my kids wherever, becuase i can't take care of them at that time!

But that is enough ranting for now! Need to get motivated!! The house needs to get cleaned and I need to fold some laundry!!

The Last Few Days

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

Is about all I can say! There has been so much going on with my family. All I want to do is hide and go away. I am so conflicted. All I really want to do now is just go and hide. I worry about my brother everyday now and what else he hasn't been telling the family. Then I hear my dad's side of things and then that just pisses me off more. I just hope things get better. And then they are things here that are stressing me out too! Is it August yet? I love all my friends here...but I just need to get away from all the drama!! I don't need it and I don't want it! All I wanna do is enjoy this pregnancy and be stress free! Even though that is an impossible situation. But I am done for tonight!! I have less than 90 days til we leave!! And I am 21 weeks and 3 days!!

Shopping!!

I went shopping a little yesterday!! I went to the consignment shop that I love yesterday. I got a few good things for the baby. I got a few burp rags and few blankets. I got a few more wrap blankets! Those things are awesome. I never had them with Abbey never heard of them. They are kiddopotamus! You can wrap them up and it velcros!! I am loving it!! I had such a hard time trying to swaddle Abbey. This is going to make it so much easier!! I also got this cover thing, that I can put in the carseat and it zips all the way around it. I have a think one for when it gets to be winter out, but didn't have one for fall, and now I do!! I also went to the Airman's Attic and got a few clothes there and they had some bottles I grabbed too!

Tomorrow Mike and I are having a party for our friend Fisch, he is going to be leaving here soon and going home for a bit before he goes to Korea, so I wanted to make him dinner and throw him a party. I will drink my water as they all get drunk!! I am making lasagna, garlic cheesy bread, and I am thinking about a desert too!!

I am starting to fall in love with the name we picked!! I just haven't found anything else I like!! I am thinking I am going to make the bedding for the baby!! I really haven't found anything I like! So I am going to make the blanket, make the bumpers, I may make the sheets too, but may by some too! I am not sure. I can make the dust ruffle thing, that should be easy!! I am so excited, Now I just need to go and look at fabric so I can get started on it!

But other than that, that is about here on my end! I need to start thinking of what else I am going to need!! I am sure the grandparents are going to want to buy a few things for this baby!!
Oh one last thing!! We bought the plane ticket for Mike's sister to come down here! She will be here on the 28th of July!! I am so excited!! In 3 months we will be out of here!! Man that time is going to go by fast!!

I know what I am having!!

Well before I get into that, I can't wait til I see my doctor on base again tomorrow! I have been taking fiber pills and they just aren't helping at all! Constipations sucks. That is all I am going to say into that!

But onto the good news, I am having another girl! She is all girl showing off all her stuff! I am super excited, we kinda have named picked out too, but who knows things may change. Right now we like Natalie Rae! We will see as time goes along! I am just excited now I can start buying stuff for the baby!! I know I need some clothes, I need a new bedding set! I sold Abbey's and of course the essentials I will need! I want to go to Airman's Attic and start getting clothes for her! All I want to do now is shop! LOL!

But we have less than 100 days til we leave. To be exact we have 95 days!! No I did not count them down, another person in Mike's shop is leaving the same day so that is how I know!! I am all excited about going!!

I am now 20 weeks pregnant! Woo hoo I made is halfway!! But I am done for tonight! Gotta get ready for bed soon!!

Baby stuff

Ahh just thinking about this pregnancy. I am almost 20 weeks, almost halfway! Just can't wait til Monday til I find out what I am having and then I can actually start thinking about some names! There are so many things that I want with this baby that I never had with Abbey. I want a wrap/sling with this one. I am definitely going to need a carseat cover. I want a bassinet with this one. I guess I am just hoping this is a boy and if it is then this will be our last one and I just want so much more with this one than what I did with Abbey. I know it sounds wierd, I mean you should want more with your first child. I guess I just thought I had it all with Abbey that I would never want anything else. I mean it this is our last one than I want the baby to be closer to me when he sleeps and wouldn't mind having them in a bassinet. It is crazy what pregnancy does to you!! What you want, what you eat, what you feel. It is very crazy all the changes that your body goes through, what you learn through each pregnancy. I mean this one is so different than what it was with Abbey. With Abbey we had her name picked out right away! With this one we are waiting until we know for sure what we are having and then we will decide. It has been a crazy rollercoaster ride and I am only halfway done with the ride!

What a couple of weeks!

From a bad Easter, to a nasty cold. Then the favorite of them all! I felt shitty yesterday. Was laying on the couch while Abbey was playing. Then went to try and lay her down, got on the computer and was sitting here for a few minutes when I felt the baby kick! I was so excited. Well then I heard Abbey talking so I went to go check on her to find out that she had taken her poopy diaper off and decided to play in it! She covered the walls and the doors with poo! Oh what a joy! I put her in the bath and cleaned up. Then around 2:30 I finally got her to sleep. Then went to sit on the couch and felt the baby move some more! I am so happy!!

But the list of apps just keep coming. Today I have a WIC app. I will finally be done with WIC here in Florida! They wanted me to come back again for an app in July. But I told them that I am going to be out of my house in July and there was no need to get milk and stuff for just a few days in the house! SO I am getting all my paperwork done today!

Now next week, I have 3 apps! So any chance of playgroup for me went out the window. I have the big one on Monday!! I finally find out the sex of the baby! I am so excited!! I can't wait! Then on Tuesday I have an OB app here!! Then on Friday I have a neurology app. Oh yes what joy! I hate having so many apps!

I have a little over 100 days left before we leave here! I am very excited for that! I will miss people, but I am excited to get closer to my mom!! I think that is it for today!! I hope everyone has a great week!!

Inlaws!! They drive me crazy!

I had to get all this out! Mike's step-mom and dad are just pissing me off! It all started last year I think, we missed his dads birthday and I told Mike that he needed to call his dad! Well anyways she called us the next day and wondered why we never called Jeff, and I told her we got busy I am sorry! But now since then, she never called on my birthday or called on Mike's birthday, never sent a card or anything. And now Abbey's birthday was last week and she never called or sent a card. I mean it is one thing to forget ours no big deal. But to forget your grandchild's your only granddaughter! I am still just so ticked! I mean even Mike's Aunt, which would be his stepmoms sister even sent her a card and called her! When we were there she took her shopping and bought her a bunch of clothes for her for Christmas. I mean even some of my family members sent her a card! My aunt and one of my cousins both sent her a card! I mean how hard is it! But we will be moving soon to MO and we will see how things go then! Maybe then she will start acting like a grandmother and come and see her granddaughter! I am due in September, and I hope that they come down for this one!
Just because her daughter can do whatever she wants and come back home when she damn well pleases. She is getting a divorce from her hubby and she is going to move back to Vegas, so then she can leave her son there again. I wish I could do that with my parents, just move back and forth whenever I feel like it and then leave one of my kids there so then I can go party it up in Vegas. I mean seriously when is she going to grow up and accept some responsibility for her life. But that is enough of her now! I think I am done venting, just needed to get it all out before I blow up and call hubby's stepmom and give her a piece of my mind.

OMG!

I am so freaking pissed right now! Someone hacked into my cafemom, I can't believe somebody did that! Why in the heck would someone do that! I can only think of two people that would do that to me! I mean how mean do you have to be! Seriously I am so pissed now I have to do all that over again and rejoin all my groups! I can't believe it! I am still seriously ticked!

A long overdue update!

It has been awhile since I have updated things! So far pregnancy is going great. I am starting to feel alot better! I am slowly starting to show and feeling pregnant! I am loving it now! I will be 16 weeks on Sunday! I have another app on the 31! I hope to find out then, if not I have an app in Pensacola on the 27 of April and should find out then!

Speaking of kids, Abbey is going to be 2 on the 31! We are having her birthday party on Sunday! I am so excited! She is getting to be such a big girl, wanting to do everything herself!

We got another dog! Her name is Sarah, Mike thinks she is yellow lab and boxer, she is such a good dog! We love her so much already! We decided that the cats needed to go! Abbey just won't leave them alone at all. Some of our friends took Houston and now we just need to find a home for Lilly, but it maybe hard to do cause Lilly is such a pain!

We know where we are going!! We are going to Whiteman AFB, Mo! We will be moving there August 1! I am really excited to be moving, but kinda scared cause I will be about 34 weeks at that time! That should be fun! It is going to be wierd leaving here! I have made so many friends, lost a few, but it has been fun the almost 6 years we have been here!

But I guess this is all for now! I have got to go make lunch before Mike gets home!

Update!!

Abbey is better!
Pregnancy sucks, I have thrown up so much! I hate it! But we have been busy around here! Mike started to play volleyball and he has games Tuesday and Thursday! But last Friday we finally found out where we are going! We are going to Whiteman AFB, MO! I am so excited to be closer to home! I will be about 8 hours from home! My mom is so happy to have us closer. Mike's sister Jaime is going to come and stay with us before we leave to help us out! That should be fun!

This weekend we are going to Louisiana! We are going to see Mike's Aunt! They haven't gotten to see Abbey in awhile and plus with us leaving they want to get to see all of us before we get out of here! So we are heading there Friday and we will be back Monday sometime! But this is just going to be a short update! I am still in my pj's and company should be here soon!

Hope everyone in the South is enjoying this gorgeous weather and if you aren't here, it will get better soon!

Adventures in the ER!

So yesterday I wasn't feeling all that hot, but took some tylenol and evenutally my headache went away. Well while I was trying to lay down, Abbey kept laying with me, it was nice to just lay and snuggle with her. But when I got up and got her lunch and after lunch she climbed in my arms and just layed there. She was so warm, Every part of her body was hot. She sat there and was crying to me and so I knew something was up, so I tried to call Mike but he was still at him meeting that was during his lunch. So about 12:30 I finally got ahold of him and said I wanted to take her to the ER, well by the time he got her she had fallen asleep in my arms, which she hasn't done since she was a baby. So I layed her down, Mike was home a little after 1. Took her to the ER, when they took her temp it was 102.7. Then I had to wait, and wait, and wait. After an hour and a half wait to see the doc, he told us we needed to get her Chest -X Rays. So they had to do that twice cause she was squirmy with the first one. I stayed in the waiting room and heard her crying!! My poor Abbey. We took her back to the doc and he said it looks like she has the start of pneumonia. Thank god we caught it so early! We got her meds and got her home and now today she is feeling so much better.


While we were there, there was another lady and her mom waiting, well when we went to go and get Abbey's meds she was telling her daughter that a lady took off in her car while holding her child. So my plea, no matter how sick you or your child is, put them in their carseat, in the back seat. Please don't ever drive while holding your child. The sp's were called and I am hoping they got to that lady! I can''t believe a mom would endanger their child that way!

I am off of my soapbox now. Can't wait for tonight going out to dinner with some friends!!

Abbey and the cat!

Abbey has been terrorizing the cat for the last few weeks it seems like! But we have been telling her and getting on her for it, but without fail she still does it, well this time the cat finally got his revenge. Houston got her head again, she has a couple of claw marks on her head. But about a few minutes later she was bugging him again! When will they ever learn.

So on Cafemom they were asking when did you start to show, I was around 5 or 6 months with Abbey. Then I went back to my pictures and remembered two years ago I was very uncomfortable at almost 9 months preggo! So we will see how long it will take before I start feeling pregnancy and when I start to show!

I hope everyone had a great Valentine's Day. We had cheese fondue, we had bread, ham and potatoes with that. Then a few hours later, well more than a few, we had chocolate fondue. Nummy!! We had angel food cake, strawberries, and pound cake with the chocolate fondue. It was awesome, we still have some of the chocolate left over!!

But I am excited I get to go to the OB on Tuesday, it seems like I have been waiting forever. I will finally get to hear the heartbeat and we should finally figure out how far along I am!!

Wierd Dream

I had such a wierd dream last night. I woke up and was like what the heck. I was almost like Reese Witherspoon in Sweet Home Alabama! I had been seeing this guy for awhile and we had a suite at most of the football games, well we broken up for some reason and I started to see this rich guy that shared the suite with us. We always bet money on the game and he always one, bought me whatever I wanted, treated me good. Well one day we went to someone's house in the woods, it was me and this rich guy and another couple. Well as soon as we got there they took the rich guy away and took the other couple too. Then one of the cop-like guy sat with me and asked me what was going on, he was like you were doing so much with this other guy and now since I have been with the rich guy I haven't been doing as well. So I sat there awhile and thought about it. I went to a friends house where they had a poker game going on and I always have a seat there, I knew my ex was going to be there, and I wanted to talk to him. So I sat down and played a few hands and then asked to talk to him, well while I was talking to him, my other friends there called up his current girlfriend and told her I was there and was talking to him. I told him that I realized I had changed that I didn't like it, I told him I realized I liked myself better when I was with him, but I also told him that I didn't want him back, I needed to spend some time with myself and sometime with my family. As soon as I got done talking with him the current chic wanted to talk to me and she told me that I couldn't have him back and that she was with him now and all that other crap. I told her the same thing I told him and she didn't believe me! Well a few days later I found myself talking to him again, and he said that there was a few things he wanted to say to me. He told me that he was glad I wasn't with that other guy anymore and that he had missed me and that he loved me and then he hugged me!

Yeah that was a wierd dream, but the wierdest part of it was, the good guy his nickname was Razorfen Kraul, for any non WOW gamers that is a instance in WOW. Yeah that was just wierd as all hell. I was like what the heck!

But I have to go cause Abbey is in the kitchen!

Pregancy

Lord this pregnancy is driving me nuts! One day I am about to get rid of Mike and Abbey, and the next day I am feeling so sick I hardly eat. Now yesterday I got so nautius that I ended up throwing up. I was in the kitchen cleaning it and something smelled awful and I barely made it to the back door...then after that I made it back to the bathroom, that didn't help much either!!

On the plus side, it is getting closer to when I have my appointment for OB soon. Mike gets a 4 day weekend soon, I am happy for that!

But I am off of here for now, need to change Abbey and get her dressed for the day!!

Is it Friday yet?

I so can't wait til Friday. It has been one heck of a week. I have never been so hormonal in my life. I cry at everything. I mean everything has been frustrating the heck out of me. I mean Abbey is just whining all the time and that just drives me nuts, and then Mike gets home and he drives me just as nuts. Oh Lord I can't wait til I get out of my first trimester. So far I am only 7 weeks and 4 days, but we will see what the doc thinks when I finally see the doc in Feb.

I wish we knew where we were going too. I mean it all goes back to being pregnant, I just want to know so then I can start doing some research on the hospital and be fine with all of it. I mean we know we are going to be gone between July 1 and July 30. But if I am due in August/September, I just want to know!! EEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRRRRRR! Just aggravating it is. LOL!

I am hoping I just have another month of this trimester and I won't be so dang crazy. I think everyone is going crazy with all my emotions!!

I love Facebook!

I have found so many friends on there. I have lots of my family on there too. It is so wierd to see faces I have not seen in almost 10 years. I just had one of my friends from college add me. Oh my, I had the biggest crush on him, he knew it...we just remained friends, we were like best friends in college! We were always together, it is so wierd to see him again. He had one of other friends on his facebook too, so I can't wait to get to talk to him too.
I realized in college and high school that I had lots of guy friends. They weren't as catty as the girls were. It was so much easier to have guy friends. That is may be the reason why I only have a few girlfriends now!!

I love facebook, just have to say it again!! It is an awesome place. I might have to get Mike on here and get my parents on here, they would love it!! LOL!!

Some awesome news!!

I am so excited...i just found out some awesome news. When I used to live over on Hatchee, I had one of the bestest friends in the world. Well they got orders to Colorado and have been there for the last 3 years or so. I called her yesterday to tell her I was pregnant and she told me that she is coming down here. I am going to get to see her again! Her husband is going to Korea and he is going to be there for a year of course and she decided that she is going to move back to Georgia, before they leave though, they are going to be in Destin for a week and they want to have dinner with us. I am so excited, I will get to spend some time with her. I have missed her so much! I am super ecstatic that she is coming, she is only a few hours from home so I will get to spend time with her before we leave, whenever we leave and wherever we are going!!

I can't wait til February now!! I get to see Jess and TJ again!!

Catch up....

Oh it has been a few days since I have posted anything. It has been quiet around here, but not back home. My step dad is at home for the next few days because he has gout again. My cousin Alyssa is in the hospital, she had been having headaches alot and she went to the ER and they found out that her brain was swollen. So now she has been in the hospital since like Tuesday and she will be in there til tomorrow.

I have been feeling ok, now I have a runny nose that is driving me crazy. I had to get off one of my meds and I think that is making me feel dizzy and shit. It sucks....I am tired all the time. Just the joys of being pregnant!

Baby Names

Well all I have been able to think about now is baby names. I think we have decided on the middle name for a boy. It will be James, after Mike's grandfather who passed away when he was in high school. I am looking through baby names and I wanted to remember some of them so I figure put them in a blog that way I have them.





Here is what I have come up with so far:


Brennan James

Cayden James

Keagan James

Kolton James

Landen James

Oliver James

Teagan James

Trenton James

Trevor James

Ok those are all the boy names I have found. Lets start with the girls nows!!

What a nightmare...wait it is reality.

I didn't think that this could happen to me but I guess it has. I realize I have a very few friends and that is probably how it is going to stay. I don't think I would have ever have to go threw what I did. I haven't cried that much since my sister died. It has been along time since I have been hurt like that. It makes me think back at my other relationships and realize maybe I am not that good of a friend. I mean if I think I have put everything I have in a friendship and then realize that she thinks that I haven't been there for her for the last 4 months maybe longer. I really don't know what else to give. I am done, finished, I can't go through that anymore. It just hurt so bad. She has everyone on her side and I am like the evil step sister and for some reason I have no idea what I did wrong. So it is going to be quiet at my house for awhile, no one will be over. I don't want to open myself like that again to just get hurt. I have a few friends and I have my husband and my daughter and besides that I am pregnant, I don't want to dwell on it, I don't need the stress in my life anymore.


Onto better news my cousin Kevin and his wife Dee are supposed to have their baby today, she is scheduled for a C-section later this morning. I am so excited for them. Chloe is going to be a big sister. I so can't wait for that to be us. I want a new baby!!

I am done for now, I am hoping Mike and I can go out to dinner tonight. It has been awhile since we have been out by ourselves. We have a gift card for Chilli's!! I may want to play is safe their, I don't need the heartburn.

I hope everyone has a good day, I am going to be in recovery mode for awhile.

I am hoping I have enough funds to go and see a movie this weekend. Krista and I want to see Bride Wars, just us two girls, bring on the popcorn!!

So....

Good news first, I found out that I was pregnant Thursday. I am very excited. I want a little boy so bad. Pregnancy is kicking my butt, I have been tired and hormonal. Just pre craziness, it just drives me nuts.

Bad news: I need to vent, I just don't understand people. Why say one thing and then do another, I just don't get that. It just drives me nuts when people do that. Seriously. My friends are just driving me nuts. I don't know if it is just me because I am pregnant or what. But if you call all of our other friends and don't call me it makes it look like you are purposely trying to ignore me. It just sucks. I have feelings and apparently they are not important. If you are reading this then you know who you are. Which I doubt there are only a few people who read this!

But hopefully this weekend I will get some sewing done and hang out with my hubby and maybe go see a movie with one of my other friends!!

Wierd day!

So this has been a wierd day!! I got some kinda good news today, it may be we just have to wait and see!! I am very excited to see how the rest of the week turns out.
Other than that things have been getting better for me! I have been calming myself down and letting people do what they want. Trying to think things out before I just speak my mind! But it is so hard for me. I have always spoke my mind.
I really want my good news to be good news, I just need patience!! Lots and lots of it!! But I think that is it for now, I will keep everyone updated on my news!!

Frustration!

I realized that I have been getting very frustrated lately and I have realied that I am trying to control the people around me. I realize that I am missing my sister very badly. It is very hard to lose someone so close to you. I love and miss her so much and I just don't want to lose the people that mean so much to me in life. I love my friends dearly and I hate to see them going through some of the things that they are. I know that I need to just calm myself the heck down and start thinking before I speak, and learn that people are going to do what they want. I won't always approve of what they do but I will just have to realize that they are adults and they can do what they want.